“MOMMY, IT'S YOUR CHOICE…” - NAOMI

Last night, I had a “gigil” episode with Nathan.  I was reviewing Nathan for a quiz and for some reason I lost my cool because he couldn’t focus on what we’re doing.  Nathan kept giving me wrong answers.  I totally broke down.  Gosh, sobrang OA reaction ko and I still feel guilty about it as I write this…

Anyway, good thing we ended the night in good terms.  We said sorry to each other and we both ended the night with love.  When we were on the bed with Ate Naomi, Nathan was starting to get kulit again.  I told him, “Nathan, do you want Mommy to get angry again?”  Aba, biglang singit si Ate Naomi sa usapan and said, “No, Mommy.  It’s not Nathan.  It’s you.  You have a choice if you want to be mad, sad, angry… It’s you.”

TOINKKK!  Straight to my face.  Nagpaka-mature si Ate!  Parang last week lang yan ang speech ko sa kanya when I was talking to her about managing her crankiness.  I paused.  Di na ko kumontra.  Did not say any excuses.  I just acknowledged her. 

Yes, Ate, you’re right.  Thanks for reminding me.  And thank you for remembering that we always have a choice on how we will react to situations.  That we are responsible for our own actions.  Made me feel good na nag-sink in naman pala sa yo long speech ko.  And again, thanks for reminding me about it.

Naomi and Nathan, I am so sorry if Mommy tends to raise her voice when trying to make a point.  I love both of you very much and I only think of what’s best for you.  When Mommy loses her patience, yes, it’s her and not you.  You are both very special, kind-hearted, smart kids.  I have faith in you, my adorable gremlins.  I love you!

BIG SISTER IN FORM AND SUBSTANCE

June 25, 2014, Wednesday
 
Dear Naomi,

I want you to know that I am beaming with pride to see you accompany your little brother Nathan to his classroom today.  You know it's only Nathan's third day in big school and he is still building up his confidence and courage to be on his own.  Nathan got clingy to Mommy when I brought both of you to school this morning.  Of course, the teacher in charge wouldn't let Mommy in the classroom area and Nathan wouldn't go without me.  Good thing you offered to bring Nathan to his classroom even if you're almost late for your own class. 

Awww, such a sweet sister.  It's like you were reassuring your brother that it's okay and he can do it, without babying him.  At that moment I felt like you were his source of strength.  You were all smiles to him.

I really pray that you both grow up to be like that --- supportive and loving of each other.  Because people will come and go through your life but your family will always be there for you.

I love you both, my adorable gremlins.  And thank you again, Naomi, for being a real big sister for Nathan.

Love, hugs, and kisses,

Mommy :)

OVERWHELMED

Yeah, it's that time of the year when it seems like all to-do's need to be completed at the same time.  I'm talking about work and the multiple deadlines.  Not complaining though.  Just sayin'.

Yes, I am overwhelmed with work.  I am overwhelmed with expectations.  I feel proud that others have high expectations but somehow they are misaligned.  I am overwhelmed with organizational movements.  

And it does not help that I get a little emotional about companies reducing their workforce and the thought that it would greatly impact not just one person's life but his/her whole family.

Times like this, I remind myself that these "incidents" are what you can call "good disturbers" in our life to remind us to:
- Be grateful always.
- Count our blessings.
- Do great in every task.  Love our work.
- Be on the top of our toes and two steps ahead of our boss.
- Be kind.
- Have faith.

At the end of the day, I still thank the Lord for His great providence to our family.  For the loving family that unconditionally supports me.  My family who I can trust about career concerns (super thanks to my hubby!).

Here are some quotes which I got from Pinterest.  I hope these will inspire you too.

Good vibes to all of us.