Last night, I had a “gigil” episode with Nathan. I was reviewing Nathan for a quiz and for
some reason I lost my cool because he couldn’t focus on what we’re doing. Nathan kept giving me wrong answers. I totally broke down. Gosh, sobrang OA reaction ko and I still feel guilty
about it as I write this…
Anyway, good thing we ended the night in good terms. We said sorry to each other and we both ended
the night with love. When we were on the bed
with Ate Naomi, Nathan was starting to get kulit again. I told him, “Nathan, do you want Mommy to get
angry again?” Aba, biglang singit si Ate
Naomi sa usapan and said, “No, Mommy. It’s
not Nathan. It’s you. You have a choice if you want to be mad, sad,
angry… It’s you.”
TOINKKK! Straight to my face. Nagpaka-mature si Ate! Parang last week lang yan ang speech ko sa
kanya when I was talking to her about managing her crankiness. I paused.
Di na ko kumontra. Did not say
any excuses. I just acknowledged her.
Yes, Ate, you’re right.
Thanks for reminding me. And
thank you for remembering that we always have a choice on how we will react to
situations. That we are responsible for our own actions. Made me feel good na nag-sink in naman pala
sa yo long speech ko. And again, thanks for
reminding me about it.
Naomi and Nathan, I am so sorry if Mommy tends to raise her
voice when trying to make a point. I
love both of you very much and I only think of what’s best for you. When Mommy loses her patience, yes, it’s her
and not you. You are both very special,
kind-hearted, smart kids. I have faith
in you, my adorable gremlins. I love you!
